To the woman who became
a mother and lost herself
in the process:

This is your invitation to find your way back to yourself, reclaim your wild, intuitive power and trust yourself again in the messy middle of motherhood and beyond.

No more mum guilt, hustle or self-sacrifice.

LET'S GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER

YOU DON'T HAVE TO WALK THE PATH ALONE...

I see you under the pressure of should, trying to be everything to everyone, playing the good girl role, while finding yourself again.

Mothering is wonderful

Mothering is healing

Mothering is humbling

and

f*cking hard.

triggering.

empowering.

It breaks you into pieces and forges you into a new way of being – season after season.

All this and much more – sometimes at the very same time.

It is a major initiation into every single piece of you.

Your body feels different. Your mind is scattered. The things that used to make sense and make you feel alive feel like a distant memory.

You want to be present, to feel grounded and to know who you are beyond the roles you hold.

hello beautiful mama,

I'm Annamaria

A warm welcome from my heart to yours.

It is not a coincidence that you have arrived here, your inner wisdom guided you.

Your intuition whispered and you listened. That's already your fabulous first step.

I am a Generator mother to a Manifestor toddler and I am still learning how to balance business, motherhood, and myself. I don't have it all figured out, but I've been slowly finding my way back to myself, and I want to help you do the same.

I am not here to coach from perfection, and you don't need to be fixed. You need to be witnessed, held, and guided back to the truth of who you are. I'm here to offer you exactly that in this season of the messy middle, in this in-between land of motherhood where you are:

loving your children fiercely, but perhaps resenting how much of yourself you have lost
wanting more for yourself - more creativity, freedom, fulfilment - but not knowing how to access it anymore
feeling guilty every time you want something that doesn’t directly involve your children
craving purpose, abundance, and ease - but feeling trapped in exhaustion, overwhelm, and old conditioning

I'm here to help you embrace your raw and real becoming YOU again.

Slowly, messily, imperfectly.

GET TO KNOW ME

Are you ready to come back to yourself?

HUMAN DESIGN

Motherhood changes everything - your body, your mind, your sense of self -but your Human Design never changes.

It’s your energetic blueprint, a map back to yourself when you feel lost in the chaos of matrescence. Instead of trying to fit into an idea of motherhood that drains you, Human Design helps you trust what actually works for you - how you’re meant to make decisions, use your energy, and feel like yourself again.

It’s not about fixing anything; it’s about remembering who you are underneath it all. You don’t have to choose between being a devoted mother and a whole, fulfilled woman. You get to be both.

LET'S EXPLORE IT

THE BECOMING SESSIONS

For the mothers in the messy middle.

You didn’t lose yourself when you became a mother - you’re in the process of becoming.

It can feel heavy: the invisible load, the exhaustion, the sense that you should have it all figured out by now. But what if you didn’t have to hustle your way back to yourself? What if you could find peace, clarity, and purpose right here in the messy middle?

I’m here to guide you back to you - through Human Design, my matrescence experience & wisdom, and embodied mothering practices.

TELL ME MORE

Kim, Embodiment Coach

Annamaria’s reading of my daughter’s and my charts was truly eye-opening. It confirmed what I intuitively felt about her energy as a Projector child and gave me confidence in my parenting choices, even when they differ from the norm.

Her insights continue to help me understand my daughter’s needs and worldview, strengthening our connection. They were invaluable when she wasn’t speaking much yet and remain just as powerful now. I am a more attuned mother because of it.

Loving words from clients

Rebecca, Plant Scientist

Working with Annamaria has been one of the best investments I’ve ever made. For years, I was stuck in a cycle of burnout and exhaustion, unable to fully step into the woman I wanted to be.

In just three months, everything shifted. I’ve embraced a more aligned way of living - one that allows me to pursue my big ambitions while also feeling balanced and fulfilled.

Annamaria was a true catalyst for this transformation, helping me see my blind spots and step into my power. For the first time, I feel strong, sustained, and free.

Henna, Artist

Annamaria’s warm, calming presence instantly put me at ease, creating a beautiful space for exploration. I felt deeply connected to both her and the process.

The reading was spookily accurate! Beyond the practical tools I gained, the greatest gift was a sense of peace and acceptance - realizing that there’s nothing wrong with my approach to life or how I navigate the world.

This session was a powerful step in my journey of self-understanding, and I’ll definitely be returning for a deeper dive with Annamaria.

When I stopped chasing the woman I was and began honouring the one I’m becoming, everything softened.

If you’re ready to meet her—the you that’s here now in the messy middle —The Becoming Sessions are your space to land.

The link is in my bio, mama. 🧡

In this heartfelt solo episode, I open up about why I took a break from the podcast, the guilt that came with stepping away, and what it’s taken to return in a way that honors my truth.
I share how I’m learning to embrace the messy middle of motherhood and coaching—where things don’t feel polished, but they are real.
I talk about starting over, listening to my sacral authority, and rebuilding my relationship with joy, pleasure, and my body.
This is a permission slip for anyone navigating their own in-between to slow down, tune in, and trust their own rhythm.

Listen on @spotify or on @applepodcasts

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #motheringittogether #matrescence #messymotherhood #messymiddle #inbetween

You don’t have to go back to feel like yourself again.
You just need to come home to the version of you that’s here now—tender, stretched, and still whole.

That starts with space.
Space to hear your own thoughts.
To feel your own emotions.
To remember that you belong to yourself, too.

The Becoming Sessions aren’t about turning you into someone new.
They’re about reconnecting you with the truth that’s always been there—underneath the noise, the roles, the constant giving.

If you’re ready to stop reaching backwards and start rooting into who you are now, the link is in my bio.
Or DM me “Becoming” and I’ll send you everything you need.

Let’s begin. 🔥

The version of you before motherhood was never meant to hold all that you’re holding now.
She was the foundation, not the final form.

The Becoming Sessions aren’t about fixing you.
They’re about honoring the woman you’re becoming in the space between no longer and not yet.

If you’re ready to be held in that becoming,
the link is in my bio.
Or DM me “Becoming” and I’ll send you everything you need.

You don’t have to do this part alone, mama.
I’m here to walk with you and witness your becoming era.

Mama, I see you.
There is a quiet knowing deep in your belly—
a pull toward something that doesn’t always make sense, something that doesn’t ask for logic or timelines,
only trust.

You may not have the map, but you are the direction.
Even here, in the thick of it—where you’re stretched between nap schedules and forgotten dreams,
between who you were and who you’re not yet—
there’s a path unfolding beneath your feet,
one step at a time, when you choose yourself.

Not the loud version of choosing, not the polished, well-lit kind— but the gentle, wobbly, quiet choosing
that whispers this matters, even if no one claps for it.

You don’t have to know the whole way forward.
You only have to be willing to let your inner pull lead.

Even when it’s messy.
Especially then.

If you’re in the middle of it all and craving a space to return to yourself—come book a Becoming Session with me.
This is where we begin again.
Together. 🔥🧡

[Link in bio / DM me to book]

I go by many names and hold many roles.
I shapeshift daily - between mum, lover, coach, daughter, woman.

I’m not here to fit into the box I was handed.
I’m here to become. Again and again.

Messy.
Sacred.
Too much for the old world, just right for the one I’m building.

This BECOMING era is about remembering, landing deeper in my body, my truth, my power. Letting it be messy, letting it be mine.
Rooted in who I am, open to who I’m still unfolding into.

Call it soft. Call it wild. I call it my golden medicine.

How about you, mama? Who are you becoming right now?

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #motheringittogether #winchmorehillmums #matrescence #motheringthroughinstagram #messybecoming #becomingme #becomingera

💦This episode is all about redefining pleasure the way it feels good to us in the messy middle of mothering - not how patriarchy has been allowing us, women and mothers to experience it.

I’m joined by my hilarious, wise, and wonderfully unhinged friend @embodimentbykim -
fellow mama, coach, and creator of a super juicy new program, The Pleasure Portal that’s all about helping women find their way back to themselves and
their pleasure after motherhood shakes everything up.

We talk about all the things from the messy in-between to reclaiming our energy, boundaries, and pleasure (or lack thereof). It’s raw, real, probably a little inappropriate, and full of truth. Just how we like it. 🔥

Listen to the @therawmumcast on @spotify or on @applepodcasts

#motheringthemother #femaleembodiment #motherhoodpodcast #motheringittogether #reclaimingpleasure

I am still moving through matrescence, identity shifts, and rebuilding myself piece by piece. Not into who I used to be, but into an expanded version of me who can hold more, who’s more authentic and more attuned to her own needs (without the guilt).

I am in my BECOMING era right now.
Have been for a while, and I feel no shame for it (anymore).
Learning to trust a slower, softer, more embodied way forward - while mothering and building a business.

I’m not here to preach from the mountain top.
I’m not here to fix you.

I’m here to walk with you, mama. 🧡
To hold space for your own messy, miraculous becoming.

If you’re ready to find your way forward - not the perfect way, but YOUR OWN WAY, The Becoming Sessions are for you.

75 minutes of holding and witnessing you (£100 while I build my portfolio).

DM to book a session or head to my website site to find out more (www.fabwmn.com) 🔥

#motherhood #mothering #motheringthemother #messymiddle #becomingme #londonmom #londonmum #embodiedmom #empoweredmoms

No shortcuts, mama. No 5-step plans.
Just the sacred, messy work of doing it your way. Becoming your way.

That’s the only way I know how to mother, reclaim, and rebuild - in real time, in real life.

The Becoming Sessions were made for this exact season.
Not to fix you.
To walk with you while you find your way back to you.

It’s not therapy, it’s not traditional coaching.
It’s witnessing, holding and understanding - without expectations.

Doors are open. Let’s begin. DM me to book a session (75 min £120) 🔥

Mama, you don’t need to be “there” yet.
The middle is where the magic brews.
The mess, the doubt, the growth - it all belongs.

This post is your reminder:
You’re not behind. You’re becoming.

Some days I feel the expansion.
The slow but certain stretch into who I’m becoming.
The quiet satisfaction of completing something I started (flirting with my Generator design)
even if it’s just a cold cup of tea and a conversation with my own heart.

Other days, I’m a mother-shaped storm: my toddler licking the dog’s fur, I haven’t peed alone in 48 hours,
and I’m asking myself if I’ve always been this unhinged
or if motherhood just revealed it.

This is the messy middle.
Not the breakdown. Not the breakthrough.
The in-between. The sacred chaos. The part no one really teaches us how to hold (it was certainly not part of my education).

I’m not here pretending anything.
I’m living it: inside out, in real time (the curse and gift of being a 6th line in Human Design).
Completing old cycles. Starting new ones.
Sometimes all before lunch.

I’m offering you here some of the quiet whispers for when I forget how far I’ve come:
🧡 I’m allowed to be a masterpiece and a hot mess mid-transformation.
🧡 Nothing is wasted - not the detours, not the breakdowns, not the half-written journal entries.
🧡 I am growing things even when it looks like I’m falling apart.
🧡 My pace is sacred. My process is enough.
🧡 I don’t need to be “done” or “fixed” to be whole.

Mama, if you’re in the thick of it too: unraveling, reweaving, rebirthing yourself - you’re not alone.
The middle is medicine and power.
And this part matters more than we’ve been told.

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #winchmorehillmums #motheringittogether #matrescence #motheringthroughinstagram #themessymiddle #messymotherhood #inbetween #metamorphosis #humandesignrelationships #humandesignshadowwork #empoweredmoms

Forget bouncing back - the only place I’m bouncing is forward into the messy, beautiful, undoing-and-becoming of motherhood.

I’m becoming my truest self - one perfectly imperfect day at a time.

Yes, I know, it’s been two years and three months since I gave birth. There’s no deadline on metamorphosis, you cannot rush the pace of becoming your most powerful and authentic self.

Are you with me, mama?

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #winchmorehillmums #motheringittogether #matrescence #motheringthroughinstagram #messymiddle #empoweredmoms #authenticmotherhood #rawmotherhood #unfilteredmotherhood

🧡 You’re Invited: A Gathering for Women Who Crave Depth & Connection

If you’ve been longing for a space where you can show up as your whole self—raw, real, and held—this is your invitation.

✨ A space to connect.
✨ A space to share honest conversations.
✨ A space to explore healing practices that nourish your soul.

This month’s theme is MESSY MIDDLE (I’m certainly in it).
Whether you’re a woman who became a mum and got lost in the process or you’re navigating the “in-between” without kids, this session is for you. We’ll sit with each other in this void and share our experiences and love with each other.

Join me and @embodimentbykim on 31 March at 7PM UK / 8PM CET for a free virtual gathering where we dive deep, reconnect with ourselves, and hold space for each other.

💫 Register now & let’s gather together. (Link in bio or DM me for details!)

Tag a woman who needs this 🔥

The Messy Middle of Motherhood - WTF is Happening to Me?!
Motherhood has a way of cracking you open. One minute, you’re you: the woman with dreams, goals, and an identity of your own. The next? You’re standing in the kitchen, holding a cold cup of tea, wondering why you suddenly feel like a stranger in your own life (I’m still in it, just like you, mama).

This is the messy middle, that weird, in-between space where the old you doesn’t fit anymore, but the new you hasn’t fully landed yet. And it’s HARD (some days I feel like I got it, other days it seems like I’m starting from scratch again).

But what if you had a roadmap for this? What if you could understand your energy, your needs, and what’s actually right for you in this season?
That’s where Human Design comes in - it’s been a nurturing anchor for me in matrescence.

In the latest episode of The Raw Mumcast, I’m breaking down:
🔥Why motherhood can feel so disorienting (and why you’re not crazy)
🔥How understanding your Human Design can help you feel less lost and more YOU
🔥The biggest mistakes we make when trying to “fix” this feeling
🔥What to do instead

This episode is your permission slip to stop forcing, start listening, and navigate this season with more trust.

🎙️Listen now wherever you get your podcasts!

#motheringthemother #messymiddle #themessymiddle #matrescence #becomingme #identityshift #motherhoodpodcast #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #winchmorehillmums #motheringittogether #motheringthroughinstagram

🔥 Hands up mamas - who here has been playing the “martyr mother” card (occasionally or often) despite having the intention to do mothering differently than our parents?

I’ve definitely done this.

Any other takers? 😎

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #winchmorehillmums #motheringittogether #matrescence #goodenoughmother #iamgoodenough #empoweredmoms

Meet yourself where you are, mama.

If you’re just realizing how deeply the ‘good girl’ conditioning runs, or if you’ve already started reclaiming yourself - pause for a moment and honor your journey.

🔥 Breaking lifelong patterns isn’t easy. But look at you. You’re doing it.

There’s no shame in where you are right now. No guilt for how long it’s taken. Every small act of self-trust, every time you choose yourself, you are rewriting the story. For yourself, for your kids and for generations to come.

Your authentic self has always been here—beneath the conditioning, beyond the guilt—waiting for you to reconnect.

🧡 So take a deep breath. Set the intention to embrace her today. She’s ready when you are.

Growing up I learned I was never enough. I was raised to be a ‘good girl’.

Then I became a mother—and suddenly my inner ‘good girl’ emerged and saying no felt selfish, resting felt guilty, and being needed became the measure of being good. Again.

But here’s what I’m unlearning: selflessness isn’t the goal. Feeling ENOUGH is.

✨ Noticing when I’m defaulting to “good girl” habits (like apologizing for taking a shower).
✨ Reframing guilt as growth—because guilt means I’m breaking patterns, not failing.
✨ Practicing small acts of self-trust—like saying no without a 3-minute explanation.

Feeling enough starts with small choices. And the truth? Your family doesn’t need a mother who does it all—they need a mother who knows she is already enough.

💬 Which one of these feels hardest for you, mama?Let’s talk in the comments ⬇️

Growing up, I saw the women around me pour everything into their families. I watched them put themselves last, wear their exhaustion like a badge of honor, and measure their worth by how much they did for others.

So that’s what I learned about being a mother, I thought that’s just how it was supposed to be.

Be selfless. Be everything. Be perfect.

But here’s what I’ve come to realize…
A mother who takes up space, who honors her needs, who allows herself to be a whole person—that’s not selfish. That’s the greatest gift she can give her children.

Because our children don’t just learn from what we say. They learn from what we embody.

🔥You get to break the cycle. You get to unlearn the ‘good girl’ conditioning. You get to choose yourself, too.

🔸 Does this conditioning still show up in your life? Drop a [❤️] if you’re working on this, too. Let’s break free together.

Motherhood invites us deep within ourselves—into places that can feel tender, raw, even overwhelming. And yet, in the very same breath, it fills us with divine joy, love, and expansion.
No emotion is superior. No feeling is “better” or “worse.” They simply are.

When we strip away the labels and conditioned judgments around our emotions, we create space to fully experience them without resistance. We remember that we are here to feel, to expand, to live.

🔥And when we embrace the full spectrum of our experience, something shifts. Life reveals its abundance. Possibility opens.

🧡Just like motherhood, each moment holds the promise of infinite joy, love, and peace.

Drop me a 🔥 in the comments, mama, if this resonates!

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #winchmorehillmums #motheringittogether #matrescence #empoweredmotherhood #empoweredmom #empoweredmama #goodenoughmother #humandesignlife #motheringthroughhumandesign

Yep, I’ve fallen headfirst into the ACOTAR obsession, and I have zero shame about it.

Turns out my thing for vampires extends to fae too (and fun fact—one of my ears is actually pointy… coincidence? I think not 😉).

Here’s to all the mamas rewriting generational stories, embracing empowered and aligned mothering, and indulging in a little spicy fantasy on the side. We contain multitudes. 🖤✨

(This Reel was inspired by @autumnwitch_booktok )

#acotarmom #acotarseries #empoweredmom #empoweredmoms #empoweredmama #fantasybooklover #momswhoread #momswhoreadacotar #londonmumsnetwork #londonmom #londonmoms #motheringthemother #enfieldmums #winchmorehillmums #motheringittogether

Being a good girl is exhausting. Being a perfect mother is soul-crushing.

In this episode, I’m pulling apart the deeply ingrained good girl conditioning and how it sets us up for the impossible standards of the perfect mother myth. We’ll explore:

✨ The good girl narrative and its grip on motherhood
✨ A heartfelt letter from a recovering good girl (yes, that’s me)
✨ Why the perfect mother doesn’t exist—and never did
✨ How we can redefine goodness on our own terms

If you’ve ever felt the pressure to get it all right, to be selfless, to hold it all together at the expense of yourself—this one’s for you, mama.
Take what you need, leave the rest, and know that you are already enough.

Thank you for listening. If this episode resonates, please rate, review, and share—so we can keep normalizing the real, raw, and messy beauty of motherhood together.

With love,
Annamaria xx

#motheringthemother #therawmumcast #londonmums #londonmum #londonmummy #mumpodcast #mompodcast #mompodcasters #motherhoodpodcast #empoweredmom #empoweredmotherhood #empoweredmoms #empoweredmama #goodenoughmother #goodgirlconditioning #perfectmothermyth

🔥Mothering is full of fire.

The deep love, the longing, the aching desire to do it right. The emotional highs, the tender lows. The dreams we hold so fiercely, the fears that catch in our throats.

🔥 Gate 30 is the Gate of Passion—the burning energy of desire, of holding big emotions, of wanting something so deeply it almost hurts.

And mothering? It asks us to sit with all of it. To honor the intensity without letting it consume us. To allow ourselves to feel fully—without fear, without shame.

So today, I remind myself:

✨ My emotions are my power, not my burden.
✨ It’s safe for me to want deeply.
✨ I allow passion and longing to guide me, not overwhelm me.
✨ I trust the ebb and flow of my emotions.
✨ My fire is sacred—I don’t have to dim it.

Mama, what is your heart longing for right now? Can you give yourself permission to want?”

#passionatemotherhood #matrescence #femaleembodiment #empoweredmothers #motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #winchmorehillmums #motheringthroughinstagram #motheringittogether #empoweredmom #empoweredmoms #empoweredmama #goodenoughmother

🔥Motherhood is light and love, yes…
But it’s also rage, grief, and breaking apart.
We hold multitudes.
Yet, the Dark Mother within us—the one who feels deeply, who dares to want more, who refuses to be silent—has been shunned. Because a “good mother” should be soft, selfless, and endlessly patient… right?

🔥No. F*ck that.

I refuse to shame the part of me that feels everything.
The part of me that protects, that rages, that demands more.
She is not the villain—she is my power.

So if you’ve met your Dark Mother self lately…
I see you.
I honor you.
And I hope you learn to love her back.

Have you felt her presence before? Tell me in the comments. Let’s talk about all of motherhood—not just the parts that are easy to love. ❤️‍🔥

Thank you @xochibalfour for creating and holding us within your Dark Mother circle of strength & healing.

Thank you @jennaececelia for inspiring a beautiful & empowering trend with your poetry.

#motheringthemother #londonmums #matrescence #motheringittogether #darkmother #empoweredmotherhood #empoweredmom #empoweredmama #empoweredmoms #motherhoodmoments #motherhoodbelike #goodgirlconditioning #perfectmothermyth #goodenoughmother #enfieldmums #londonmummy #winchmorehillmums

5 years ago, I thought motherhood was just cute baby snuggles and mild exhaustion. HA.
Then I became a mother, and reality hit me like a truck. A beautiful, chaotic, sleep-deprived truck.

🔥Mothering is WORK.
🔥Matrescence shakes your entire identity.
🔥Motherhood is a system that asks for everything and gives very little back.

🧡That’s why I do what I do now—because we are NOT meant to navigate this alone.

Mama, if you’re feeling overwhelmed, you’re not broken. You’re in the middle of a massive transformation. And I promise, it gets lighter when you have the right support.

How has motherhood surprised YOU? Drop a comment below—I’d love to hear your story. 🧡

🔥Motherhood is a revolution.🔥

Not the loud, burning-it-all-down kind (though, some days, that too). But the quiet, steady kind. The kind that begins in whispers—in small, radical choices to do things differently.

🌟To mother in a way that honors who you are. Who they are.
To release the “shoulds” that never fit in the first place.
To break cycles, even when it feels uncomfortable.
To trust your intuition more than outdated expectations.

Because the way we mother now shapes the future. The values we model, the love we embody, the freedom we give ourselves—our children are watching. And what if the greatest gift we could give them is a new way forward?

So let’s dream for a moment (and get inspired by Gate 49):
✨ What if you mothered from intuition instead of obligation?
✨ What if you let go of what no longer serves you?
✨ What if you allowed your child to be fully themselves—and allowed the same for you?
✨ What if motherhood felt expansive instead of constricting?

What if you let yourself reimagine motherhood?
Mama, if there was nothing to lose, what would feel true for you?

#Matrescence #FemaleEmbodiment #EmpoweredMothers #motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #motheringthroughinstagram #winchmorehillmums #embodiedwoman #motheringthroughhumandesign #empoweredmotherhood #empoweredmom #empoweredmama #empoweredmoms #goodenoughmother

💣Mum guilt is a sneaky little trickster.

Just when you finally take a moment for yourself, it creeps in, whispering all the ways you should be doing more.

But here’s something I want you to know…

Mum guilt isn’t proof that you’re failing. It’s just a signal—pointing to old expectations, outdated beliefs, and inherited stories that were never meant to fit you.

Instead of letting guilt run the show, try this:

✨ Understand your Human Design—so you can stop forcing yourself into a version of motherhood that isn’t yours.

✨ Redefine what “good enough” actually means—on your terms.

✨ Get curious about guilt instead of believing it. Ask: Is this true, or is it just an old story?

Because the truth is… guilt doesn’t make you a better mum. But awareness does. And you, mama, are already more than enough. 🧡

Did this reframe help? Let me know in the comments & tag a mama who needs to hear this today. ⬇️✨

🌟There’s a difference between hearing and truly listening.

Listening isn’t just about words—it’s about presence. It’s about holding space without rushing to respond, without waiting for your turn to speak, without trying to fix or prove or save.
It’s about meeting someone exactly where they are, with an open heart. Yes, yourself, too.

And just as we long to be listened to—to be deeply seen—our children do too. They feel the difference when we truly hear them. And just as importantly, they absorb the way we speak to ourselves.
Because they are always listening.

So today, I’m reminding myself:
✨ I listen with my whole heart, not just my ears.
✨ I hold space without needing to fix.
✨ My child deserves to feel deeply heard—and so do I.
✨ The way I speak to myself teaches my child how to speak to themselves.
✨ I trust the wisdom in the quiet moments.

Mama, when was the last time you felt truly listened to? And how often do you offer yourself that same gift?

#motheringthemother #londonmums #londonmum #enfieldmums #londonmummy #londonmumsnetwork #londonmumsnetwork #motheringthroughinstagram #motheringittogether #winchmorehillmums #matrescence #motheringthroughhumandesign #motheringbydesign #empoweredmotherhood #empoweredmom #empoweredmoms #generatorhumandesign #manifestorhumandesign

As the Sun moves through Gate 19—the Gate of Wanting—I find myself sitting with this question:
What do I need?

Motherhood asks so much of us. To give, to hold, to stretch ourselves thin. And many of us were raised to believe that a ‘good’ mother gives until there’s nothing left. That her needs come last—or not at all.

I grew up watching women abandon themselves in the name of love. They poured everything into their children, never asking for support, never claiming space for themselves. And underneath it all? Exhaustion. Resentment. A longing that was never spoken.

I refuse to pass that down and the more it comes to the surface now that I’m a mother the more I’m ready to meet it and offer it back to my ancestors.

Because when I take care of myself, I teach my child that his needs—and mine—are both worthy. That love isn’t about sacrifice, it’s about connection. And connection thrives when we are nourished, not depleted.
Here are the words I’m holding close:
✨ My needs matter, too.
✨ Taking care of myself is a gift to my child.
✨ I choose interdependence, not martyrdom.
✨ I am worthy of support, rest, and joy.
✨ Love is not self-abandonment.

Motherhood and selfhood can coexist. And I am learning, every day, how to hold both.

What about you, mama? Do you find it hard to meet your own needs?

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💣 What a f*cking lie we’ve been sold about “bouncing back” after birth.

Motherhood isn’t a setback to recover from. It’s a transformation. Matrescence reshapes everything – body, mind, and heart.

You’re not broken. You’re shedding layers and making way for your wholeness to come through.
You’re braking out of the boxes society has put you into.
This shift is powerful, not something to shrink from.
Let the “shoulds” go, mama.
Wholeness lives here.

Release the bounce-back narrative and rewrite your own with the help of your Human Design.

✨ Save this for when you need the reminder.

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🔥 It’s okay to start small. It’s okay to dream without knowing how it will all unfold.
Mama, what’s one small dream or longing calling to you right now? What’s one step you can take today to honor it?

Each gate in Human Design carries wisdom, and Gate 41—the Gate of Contraction—whispers of new beginnings.

This gate holds the energy of desire and imagination, the starting point of every story. It reminds us to trust the process of creation, even when it begins small and tender.

🖋️Lately, I’ve been sitting with my own dreams (some so big they scare the 💩 out of me). The inner whispers that say, ‘What if?’ And instead of rushing to figure it all out, I’m learning to pause, to feel, to take one step at a time. Oh my, it is a humbling lesson! I’ve been weeding out my inner garden of all the things I’d learned I should have by the age of 41 and do as a mother.

Mama, if you’re feeling a spark of desire today, honor it. Let yourself dream, even if it feels far away. The seed you plant now might grow into something more beautiful than you can imagine.
What’s your quiet dream right now? Share it below if you feel called.

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🌟Are you craving a sacred space to pause, reconnect, and rediscover yourself? This January, we’re diving into the powerful theme of REBIRTH — and you’re invited to join us.

On 27th January at 7pm UK / 8pm CET, Kim (@embodimentbykim ) and I will guide you through a heartfelt hour of sisterhood. Together, we’ll slow down, share honest conversations, and honor the cycles of transformation that connect us all.

Whether you’re mothering a child or nurturing yourself, this circle is for YOU—a space to be seen, heard, and held.

Take a deep breath as you’re reading this and imagine stepping into a gathering where you’re surrounded by women who understand the power of rebirth. A place where the energy of the eternal feminine strengthens you and reminds you of your own resilience and potential.

✨ Register now to join us for free! (Link in bio).

We can’t wait to gather with you.
With love,
Annamaria xx

The Sun moves through all 64 gates of Human Design, giving us space to pause and reflect.

Today, it’s Gate 60—the Gate of Limitations. I know, it sounds meeh, but instead of resisting what feels restrictive, what if we leaned into it? What if these limits were here to guide us toward what really matters?

I’ve been reflecting on the idea of time lately, as it seems there’s never enough of it in mothering. It’s easy to say, ‘I don’t have enough,’ but what if the truth is, ‘It’s not my priority right now’? That reframe hit me deeply and reminded me to take full responsibility for my choices and time 😉.

So here’s an invitation: Take a breath. Ask yourself what you can do within the limits, and see what shifts.
What limits are you feeling today, mama? How could you see them differently?”

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Listen to my audio journal – the first week of my postpartum experience. I kept an audio journal for the first 40 days after giving birth. I was mostly recording with Leo lying on me and nursing, holding my phone in awkward positions, but I wanted to keep these memories as fresh and raw as possible for later reflections.

There is so much we don’t talk about, we don’t share when it comes to postpartum. The vulnerability of this episode, the rawness of my audio journal might offer you some insight into the reality of it (disclaimer: it was my reality, yours might be very different), or maybe it can make you feel seen and acknowledged.

Some of the themes you will hear:
A new reality
Navigating hospital life with a newborn
The chaotic first days and challenges of postpartum
Coping with exhaustion and desperation
Emotional turmoil, guilt and loneliness
Surrendering expectations and embracing reality
Finding joy amidst anxiety

I trust that you take whatever is meant for you from this episode.

Love, Annamaria, xx

Thank you so much for listening. Please rate, review and share my podcast so that we can normalise motherhood together and empower each other to feel good enough - in motherhood and beyond.

When your toddler is a Manifestor and insists on doing everything themselves… 👶✨ Meanwhile, you’re a Generator over here like, ‘But helping lights me UP, let me just DO it for you!’ 🥹💡(let’s be honest, there’s a bit of some leftover “good girl” conditioning as well)

Balancing my urge to respond to everything with his need for independence is the ultimate dance. 💃🛠️

Breaking cycles and raising a little leader is empowering and all, but no one warned me it would require this much self-control (and deconditioning)! 😂

Who knew saying ‘okay, you’ve got this’ could be my biggest act of love? 😂

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Hello, mamas, it’s been a hot moment since I introduced myself and so much has changed since then.

To be honest, matrescence feels like an infinite loop of learning and changing.

I’d like to get to know you as well - tell me one thing about yourself in the comments 💜

Feeling empowered as a mother isn’t about doing more — but about doing it differently, in a way that aligns with your unique design.

🔍Human Design is a tool that helps you understand your natural strengths, energy flow, and decision-making style. It’s like a blueprint for you. Instead of bending to fit parenting advice that wasn’t created for you, Human Design helps you discover an approach that feels natural, intuitive, and sustainable.

It’s like having a personalized guide for YOU in this lifetime.
It invites you to unlearn all the “shoulds” and “musts” society tells us about parenting. Instead, you show up as the mother you’re meant to be — and nurture the child you actually have.

For example, if you’re a Projector, you’re not designed to parent like someone with endless energy. You thrive on guidance, reflection, and pacing yourself. Trying to do it all will lead to burnout — but parenting in alignment with your design will allow you to feel more present and connected.

But it’s not just about you — Human Design also gives you insight into your child.
Imagine this:
• You know their unique love language.
• You understand how to support them in becoming their true self.
• You can see their potential gifts and challenges before they even face them.
• You’re able to raise them in a way that aligns with their flow, not against it.

Mothering through Human Design can help you:

• 🌱 Avoid burnout by honouring your unique energy patterns.
• 🤝 Deepen connection with your kid(s) by adapting parenting to your children’s designs too.
• 🧘‍♀️ Increase confidence in your decisions by learning to trust your inner authority.

This isn’t just another method — it’s a framework that celebrates you.

Motherhood isn’t about becoming a different version of yourself; it’s about rediscovering the empowered, intuitive mother you already are. Human Design helps you break free from comparison and create a parenting style that works for you and your family.

💌 Ready to learn more? DM me “EMPOWERED” and let’s explore how Human Design can transform your motherhood journey.

✨ Hey mama, ever feel like no matter how much advice you follow, something still feels… off? You’re not alone. Many mothers trying to break generational cycles feel overwhelmed by the endless stream of parenting “shoulds.” I know, I have.

🔥 What if the reason you feel this way isn’t because you’re doing it wrong — but because the advice isn’t meant for you?
Mothering isn’t one-size-fits-all. And chasing perfection through someone else’s blueprint will only drain you further.

🌱 Imagine navigating motherhood feeling confident, aligned, and trusting your intuition (yes, despite f*ck ups and 💩 hitting the fan). There is a way to break cycles and feel empowered in your parenting – by understanding your unique design.
Human Design offers a path to parent in a way that feels natural, more fulfilling, and deeply connected to who you are.

🚀 Stop second-guessing yourself. It’s time to trust your instincts and embrace your way of mothering.

Curious how? Let’s explore how Human Design can transform the way you show up for your children – and yourself.

💌 DM me “EMPOWERED” to learn more!

We’re in the middle of night weaning – AGAIN.
It’s been taking me right to my edges, especially after two weeks of chaotic sleep while we were all down with a virus.

But honestly, seeing my little Manifestor back in his element makes it all worth it – climbing everything in sight, launching off the furniture (without telling me but expecting me to catch him 🙈), racing around the house yelling, “Leo is super fast!” and showering Luna with kisses and hugs.

As for me? Mothering feels like a daily invitation to surrender (and to sort my 💩 out).
My Generator energy craves finishing things, responding, seeing projects through – but my Manifestor son is already five steps ahead, pivoting with the speed of light, driven to do everything his own way.

🧡🔥 Here’s to the mothers who are breaking generational cycles – the ones nurturing their own inner child while showing up for their little ones.
You’re doing the work, even when it feels messy.

I see you and feel you.

What if new year does not equal new you?
What if you didn’t have to become someone new?
What if you were already enough? What if you were already YOU (perhaps wearing some extra layers that don’t belong to you)?

In this episode of the @therawmumcast I am sharing about the guilt, shame and not enoughness that many years of resolution setting and then failed execution brought into my life. I’m also talking about what I do instead when calendar years are changing and how I use Human Design and natural cycles to create and navigate my life.

Some of the themes you’ll hear in this episode are:
-Embracing the New Year without pressure
-Challenging the “New year, new you” narrative
-The importance of self acceptance
-Cycles of growth: nature vs calendar year
-Setting intentions: a flexible approach
-Embrace your seasons

Growth, healing, expansion are all cyclical. Life itself is cyclical, we humans are cyclical too. The whole fucking universe is cyclical.
Shedding layers of who we are not meant to be is not bound to 1st of January or a calendar year that is actually just a social contract.

I trust that you will find something in this episode you can play with for yourself. Thank you so much for listening, please comment, share and review the podcast.
Love, Annamaria, xx

My words for 2024 were LOVE, JOY and PEACE, and they delivered in ways that I did not expect or imagined.
It was a year of diving deeper into the realms of my humanness, holding space for my son and myself and once again rediscovering who I am by design.

So many things I planned did not happen and many others found me just at the right time and place of my being.

I hope that you will find lots of compassion for yourself as you reflect on your year and I’m wishing you a wonderful 2025 in mothering and beyond!

BREAKING NEWS - It’s finally here, the podcast is here!

Today is Leo’s second birthday and my birthing day, and I’m celebrating it with bringing the show alive. After 20 months of dreaming, prepping, figuring it out and mainly fitting it into mothering, I’ve created a show about the wins and f*uckieries of motherhood with a dash of Human Design and a sprinkle of shadow work.

Motherhood has been my wildest adventure yet. It’s taught me about love in its rawest form and has pushed me to face myself in ways I never thought possible. Through the wins, the struggles, and those heart-wrenching, sleepless nights, I’ve learned that none of us have it completely figured out—and that’s okay.

That’s why I’ve created The Raw Mumcast, a space where we can strip away the mum guilt, share the unfiltered truths of motherhood, and celebrate the glorious, messy magic of being “good enough.”

The Raw Mumcast is now live on Spotify and Apple Podcast (all info in bio). Please go listen and leave a review, comment, share it with others - that’s all I want for Xmas babes.

Thank you for all your support, xx

Where will you listen to the show?

There’s nothing really meaningful to go with this - I’m not even trying to align my messaging or do a marketing stunt with this reel.

This is me expressing my mothering experience through humour - this video actually brought me so much joy (my Generator aura was buzzing with laughter when I first saw it, and my Sacral went “hmm, yes”)

Can you relate, mama?

My intuition talks to me through my Sacral, which is a pretty fast and loud gut feeling - it’s not logical, it just knows.
Usually it’s a humming sound within, sometimes an actual pull towards something.
When I listen to her guidance (aka honour my Human Design authority) it feels like life is in flow, synchronicities are happening, my whole being feels alive and energised.

Which part of your body is guiding YOU, mama?

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Come as you are and gather with us on 25th November at 7pm UK time for a sweet and heartfelt hour of sisterhood.

I’ll be holding this (and many more circles) with the amazing Kim of @embodimentbykim

We’ll gather to slow down, to have honest conversations, to witness each other and to strengthen the potency of the eternal feminine energy.

Whether you’re mothering yourself or a child, you’re welcome to gather with us.

It’s a free event, but please register to gain access (you’ll find the link in my bio)

See you there love, xx

AND I’m doing it anyway.

Because I’ve been dreaming of it for a year and half.
Because it will be my talking therapy, helping me process some postpartum trauma and making sense of matrescence.
Because it might help YOU as well to feel connected, witnessed and that you are enough.
Because I’m showing up for my soul’s calling and mission.
Because it’s f*cking time to uplevel.
Because I have faith and a big vision and even though I’ve never done this before, I trust that I can figure it out as I go along.

So, I’m bringing my 6.2 Generator Virgo vibes, the rawness of my experiences, the joy of my heart with a dash of Human Design and a sprinkle of shadow work.

Who’s excited with me? Drop 🔥 a below.

Tell us 3 words in the comments that come to you when you think of motherhood right now.

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